June 2016

It is not always easy keeping sight on the “bright side of life.”  I have been writing my gratitudes on Facebook for the better part of 3 years now and, for the most part, I do have a better outlook on life than when I don’t write the gratitudes.

My mother is officially diagnosed with moderate to severe Alzheimer’s disease.  While I am sad to make it official, I have no regrets for things left unsaid.  My brother was diagnosed with throat cancer in May of 2015 and has had to fight with insurance plans for months.  He is finally going through his treatment and today is, hopefully, his last day of chemotherapy.  He was very lucky that his cancer was caused by a virus as it is treatable and has a 97% cure rate.  Funny how life can turn on a dime.

So, what in these circumstances makes me grateful?

  1.  I had the means, and home, to allow my brother to be able to only focus on getting better.
  2. I do not have regrets for things left unsaid with my mother.
  3. I learned that I am not a natural caregiver.  Seriously? That is something to be grateful for?  Yes, I have learned this fact about myself.  Now I can work find ways to grow the caregiver skills by stepping outside of myself and find ways to help people.
  4. When I keep to my daily gratitudes, I find that my daily frustrations are more readily managed.

Taking some time to write things down is how I make sense of my life and my place in this world.  I love to help people learn new things, but I am not a fan of repetitive training sessions or attempting to teach things I don’t feel I know as an expert.  I would like to have the help I need to better understand certain things so that when I share it with others I am not guessing.